Lamar Odom opens up about cocaine use in Players' Tribune

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Lamar Odom is trying to put the past behind him.

The former NBA champion opened up about his rampant cocaine use in an article for the Players' Tribune, saying that he used the drug every day prior to his nearly fatal overdose in 2015.

"I think of all the sneaky shit I tried to get away with," he wrote. "All the times I did wrong. All the stuff I tried to hide. If it's not in the public light, it's in God's light.

"I was laying there in that bed, hooked up to all these machines, people all around me crying, and there was no running from it anymore. It was like God was telling me, 'Whatever the fuck you think you're doing, you need to slow down. Or it's gonna be worse than this.'"

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While Odom is now sober, he says that his urge to relapse is still strong, but a promise to his daughter Destiny to seek treatment has motivated him over the past couple of years.

"I'm sober now. But it's an everyday struggle," he wrote. "I have an addiction. I'll always have an addiction. It never goes away. I mean, I want to get high right now. But I know that I can't if I want to be here for my children.

"I shook hands with death. But you know what? Ain't no coming back from that. Even though my funeral would probably be a good funeral, and there'd probably be a lot of people who hadn’t seen each other in a long time. But it ain't time for that yet."